Not where you once were, yet not where you're going. Jumpy energy. Impatience. Mars and Sag energies. Mars says, I want it yesterday. Sag says, I'm leaving for the Hebrides tomorrow. Capricorn has a dog in this game. You need to be reasonable, he says. And it's all happening at the same time. When the mean reds hit, lie down on the floor. Kick and scream, hard and loud as you can. You'll feel amazing when you're done and your chakras will be perfectly aligned.
The in-between can feel like being stuck between a rock and a hard place. Sometimes that’s exactly what it is, but not this time. Think of the earth in winter. To the naked eye all is dead, but oh my darlings the invisible life carrying on underground! That’s what this in-between is about; the invisible twists and turns, realigning here, changing there, miracles forming, you can’t see them…..yet. You might be thinking fuck this; I am so done with the work of consciousness and authenticity. I’m still in debt, I still don’t have the job I want, I still don’t have the man of my dreams, etc., These feelings are coming up a lot for my beloved clients because of last month’s Mercury retrograde in Scorpio. The thrust of the retrograde was to move people out of their comfort zone by showing you where you were engaged in toxic and dysfunctional behavior. All dysfunction, all toxic behavior, is a kind of survival mechanism. Negating your abilities and talents, putting other’s needs before your own, refusing to see or devaluing your successes, vicious self-talk are all survival mechanisms because they keep you small. When you’re small, you’re not a target. Becoming aware of how you’re hurting yourself is not the time to beat yourself to a pulp, judge yourself unmercifully, or nail yourself to the cross. It is the right and perfect time to get on your side.
Mercury retrograde in Scorpio put everyone in touch with their deepest yearnings and desires. The retrograde quite literally cracked the (no longer protective) armor, and a new piece of radiant self, the self who will take you there, emerged. She (or he) is pure, unformed potential. She (or he) is “I can,” and “I will,” and “I’m going to have a good time getting what I want.” To work with this potential, of, by, and for you, root deep, go dark, and feel the energies of the earth spiraling up through the souls of your feet and throughout your body. Imagine what you want in your life, imagine it’s already happened and you’re living it. When you return to this time and place say, “this or something better.” Sometimes it’s necessary to go for an exact result. This is not that time. Go for the essence, the feeling that what you want will give you, and let the Lady/Lord/Universe take care of the form. The form will be born at Yule.
The best way to work with stress spasms and the free-floating anxiety common to in-between energy is to think about what makes you feel content. Mashed potatoes and gravy? Throwing chicken bones on a neighbor's lawn? Freshly shaven legs on clean sheets? Snuggling up with a small child to watch Moose and Squirrel? Commit to doing one thing a day for the next five days that makes you feel truly content. Revel in the sensation; go deep, go deeper. True contentment rests the body, the mind, and the soul. True contentment allows the heart to break in on itself with sweet relief and gratitude for the break in the battle. Gratitude is an action of love and you with all your dark and your light and your shadows and in-betweens are a magnificent being of love. Love self beyond all reason, my darlings.
Live loud, love fierce, and suffer no fools. katherine manaan x0
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