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WitchSpeak: 7/17-1/24 Weekly Card: Shield, defend

7/17/2022

Hello my Darlings,

This week, expect to find your footing after last week’s remarkably intense, super full moon in Capricorn. Saturn (ruler of Capricorn) triggers the not-so-nice and the not-so-pretty. Saturn can trigger deepest fears, profound sadness, feelings of powerless-ness and a terrifying vulnerability. Saturn, though, is working for you. Feelings are not facts. Feelings are great allies and a barometer of what’s going on with you. We are taught from an early age that some feelings are good, (right) and some feelings are bad, (wrong) and having bad feelings makes you a bad person. Nobody really wants to be a bad person so you do what you have to do to avoid the bad feelings, which usually takes the form of rising above, or drinking and drugging to die, or simply denying that the feelings are there.

Another popular way of dealing with the so called bad feelings is to try to figure out what’s wrong with you. This is often thought of as spiritual, and the question becomes what have I done to create this. What is my part in this creation? I have no patience with this kind of thinking. The human contains humanity; without the human there is no humanity. Human beings have feelings. Since we all seem to have the same ones, rather than trying to get rid of them, which no one ever can, perhaps we can figure out what they’re for.

The question is never, ever, what’s wrong with me. The question is, who am I? Am I a raging bitch? Sometimes. Am I a sweetheart who intuitively knows how to help others? Sometimes. Do I resent getting old? Big fucking time. Do I love being an accomplished woman, hysterically funny and wise with rich experience? Absolutely. There is no static answer to who-am-I because you’re always evolving and growing and uncovering. My therapist Wise Joe used to say, “Hold the question. You’ll get pieces of the answer and then you’ll get more pieces of the answer and so on and so on.” Clearly, understanding is open-ended, not closed, not fixed.

Try honoring your feelings. Try honoring the woman/the man who has the courage to have them. How? Go to the mirror and see what the feeling looks like. I’ve been doing healings and readings for over 40 years and I’ve never met anyone whose feelings weren’t appropriate to their situation. Could be shame, could be rage, could be resentment, could be wanting someone’s head to blow up, the list goes on. Interestingly enough most of our uglier feelings are rooted in an old context. Context is socialization- context is why and how you judge yourself the way you do. It’s the big ugly feelings that bring context to the surface. I told you Saturn was working for you.

Threading through all of this is a new determination being born. A flat-out, aggressive but quiet rebellion against that which keeps you small. In the coming weeks, expect abrupt shifts, in consciousness. Think unapologetic; think this is who I am, and this is what I’m going to do. Ground and watch this spectacular aspect of self, come to surface. You don’t know her…yet. It’s an ancient kind of healer-as-warrior energy dedicated to planet and humanity. Of course I drew the shield card. In life, there are times when we have to defend ourselves; our thoughts, our feelings, our beliefs, our actions and we have to be rigid as bone about it and not give an inch. Watch for people trying to hook you into a fight. Smile and step away, or don’t smile and run away. You owe no one any explanation for the changes flooding your being with absolute radiance. Stand in your truth.

Live loud, love fierce, and suffer no fools. Kat x0xx0

Art: Eileen Agar

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WitchSpeak: Mars in Taurus, Weekly Card – Bridge - Connect 7/9/2022- 7/16/2022

7/9/2022

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WitchSpeak: Mars in Taurus, Weekly Card – Bridge - Connect

The overall each of us will be experiencing (no matter what sign) through August 20th, is Mars in Taurus. Mars is ambition, Taurus is earth and grounding, ergo a grounding of one’s ambitions. That’s the nice, balanced way to put it. How I see it? Mars wants everything yesterday, Mars is in a BIG hurry. Taurus refuses to be hurried. Hurry a Taurus and they will purposely slow down. I am a Scorpio, but never more Taurean, than when I’m driving and some fool starts tailgating me on a two-lane, double-solid-yellow- line, road. I purposely slow down.

Best way to work the Mars in Taurus, is to give your Mars side time to dream; to write down what you want to create/desire/must have, and then purposely give the timing of successful completion, over to process. It’s a hanged man experience. You never loose sight of what you’re creating, you’re just not insisting on your time frame. Sometimes a time frame, other than your own, really sucks. When the timing feels beyond frustrating, take a step back. Either drop the subject for now or if you can’t, think about the goal and REMEMBER: of course you’re going to get what you’re going for – this or something better. That doesn’t mean you have to fucking love or even like the process. New Age thinking tells us we have to let go of those kind of feelings, that those feelings are creating all kind of negativity. This has never made any sense to me. I’ve been a soul counselor and healer for over 40 years and we all have the same feelings. Clearly, we need to figure out how to work with these feelings, rather than beating ourselves into the ground over having them. To this end I’ve been experimenting with new kinds of self-talk on me, and my clients and we’re loving it a lot.

“The wait feels like crap, I feel like crap, I am so tired of feeling like crap. I never get what I want. Actually that’s not true, I have gotten what I wanted numerous times, it’s just doesn’t feel like it right now and I’m feeling powerless to move things along, to impact to my benefit. I know for fact that if I feel my powerless-ness, and if I give over to the feeling, the path of power will open for me. I am not going to judge myself here, I’m not going to look for lessons and all that crap. I am simply going to be, and honor all my complications, which are part of my astounding uniqueness. We all have things in common and we all that which makes us unique….”

The point of this kind of self-talk is to find/create what I call breathing room, without cutting off and denying your feelings. To cut off from feelings, they will simply take up residence in your shadow, and continue to fester-fester-fester. Self-talk, (as per the example above) is about consciousness and living consciously. To live consciously is not to be controlled by the wounds in shadow. As my dearest friend, Shaman Marie says, “You gotta own where you are, sistar.” But without the harsh judgement. Remember we/you are programmed to judge ourselves/yourselves as harshly as possible to keep us subservient and on our knees.
You’re not just the face you see in the mirror. Each of us are huge entities, visible and invisible, with about a million different aspects. Living consciously is a means of building bridges to all of our different aspects. If you’re feeling like you’re not worth anything, and you go to the mirror and you see face of the woman/man having those feelings, and you put your arms around her/him and rock her/him ever so gently, like you’d rock a child, that’s an act of self-love. Too many people have been taught that you can only love yourself when you’re rid of the so called negatives of your being. Low-self esteem, shame, guilt and jealousy, the list goes on.

Entirely too many people are working on perfection rather than self-love. It’s like we’re not worthy of love unless we’re always working on improving ourselves, reaching for some kind of ideal, created by man, for man, and unattainable, to keep us groveling and subservient.

Self-love is the ultimate act of revolution. Stand tall, stand free. Stand in love, of love, by love, and for love. You are ever building your own bridge over and through troubled waters.

Live loud, love fierce, and suffer no fools. Kat x0x0x0

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WitchSpeak: 7/17-1/24 Weekly Card: Shield, defend

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