 Art: Jeannie Tomanek Hello my darlings, The summer energies brought up a lot of old stories, old belief systems, and old tapes, that most of y’all thought you’d unpacked. Me too. Sensitives and creatives were having a hell of a time this past summer because the old tapes came back – you’re not good enough, you’re not pretty enough, you’re not smart enough, you’re not talented enough – you know the ones, a sucking pool of magnetic poison seeking the radio tracers in your psyche. Once upon a time tapes such as these kept us safe, we knew where it hurt, we wanted to make sure we didn’t get hurt that way again, and developed a defense. A defense that we thought protected us from feeling that awful way ever again. And it probably did, but it also limited the experience of some of the best parts of life and living. The issue with the chosen defense, which was much needed at the time and an unconscious decision, is that the defense does not heal the wound. Over the years I’ve noticed that when a woman hits her 40’s is when the old defenses start to crumble. And that’s a good thing. You don’t want to be protecting a wound, you want to be healing a wound. and the reason you want to be healing a wound is because it hurts, and it controls your behavior, and you want to be free to view life from your perspective, not the perspective of mom, dad, boyfriend, best friend and whoever wounded you, etc. Any kind of self-help work you do is an act of self-love and it hit me the other day that self-help books are a billion dollar business. Clearly the culture, as it has been set up, is not kind. As per my guides, the point of the energies this past summer was to bring the core, unconscious wound into focus. When people really begin to see and feel how the old stories created their world and their life, they fall into a deep well of anger. Anger is an appropriate response to a boundary violation. Anger says, “STOP!” Anger says, “Get the fuck away from me!” Anger says, “They did what to me??!!” Lot’s of anger under the surface the first 2-3 weeks of October. Dodge it, avoid it, people are looking for fights, so don’t let ‘em hook you in. After this summer, quite a few of y’all are sharply aware of how you’ve been playing small at life, because you were programmed to play small. Enough of it being your fault. You ARE NOT responsible for your programming, and you can give it back. Programming = socialization = Social engineering. When I see my planet being destroyed and human beings stepped on and killed as if they were cockroaches; it makes me very, very angry. Anger is valuable: it’s red, it’s the first chakra, it’s LIFE FORCE. Anger is rooted in love. Right use of power is love made visible. I am not a mystic guide for others because I hate the way the world is set up. I do what I do because I love the planet, and the way human beings have been programmed to view self and soul makes my blood boil. My anger moves me to make changes, to align with my soul purpose in a new way. That is the biggest change I see for the month, people aligning with their soul purpose in a new way. It could be subtle, it could huge, either way it’s new and that’s exciting. And maybe a little disturbing but nothing you can’t handle, and it’s all based on an emotional choice. An emotional choice that FEELS right. And it doesn’t matter what logic tells you, you know it’s right. Given we’re in eclipse season, you can expect disruptive changes that seemingly come out of nowhere. (Trust me, they’re not) You stay grounded, and when the smoke clears, you may choose to weed the garden that is your life. Key to the first 2 1/2 - 3 weeks of October is slow down; a day at a time, a breath at a time, a moment at a time. I'm all about working with energies in much the same way I used to body surf. Feel out the current first. Most of the weeding this month is in the way you think. Positivity is making a comeback, but you need to own where you are first, otherwise the affirmation is going to create a split and you’re going to feel crazier than ever. It’s akin to the top half of you feeling happy, joyous and free but down below, oh baby it’s dark. Unlike organized religion, in witchcraft there is no split between spirit and flesh. Winning your court case is every bit as valuable as running out to pick up milk for your 95-year-old, home bound neighbor. Getting the car inspected before winter hits is every bit as valuable as cutting circle and calling in earth, air, fire, and sea to pray for all those suffering. In other words, the spiritual does not diminish the human; the spiritual is not superior to the human. Spirit needs the body to grow and evolve, body needs spirit to function, to be alive. The body is animated by spirit and spirit is always excited to get another body so it can reincarnate. Back to positivity and affirmations for a moment. Let's say you want love in your life so you say: I am loving and lovable. I am desirable, I am mysterious and magical, beautiful and brilliant, with a great sense of humor. I'm a really good partner..... Affirmations are positive statements of your being that are supposed to act as magnets for what you want in life. When they don't work it's because you've bumped into a block/wound and you have to become conscious of what that is. For instance, if I don't believe I'm worthy and deserving of love and I keep saying I'm worthy and deserving of love it's not going to work. What needs to made conscious here is why I think I'm not worthy and deserving of love. There's a story there and that story needs to be made conscious. (Last summer ring a bell?) If something comes up when you're working with affirmations and/or tapping and you can't affirm or tap around it - stop; trace the feeling and make the story around it is conscious. If you want to know how that works go here and read the one on self-love. What’s coming up for re-alignment this month, is what makes you feel the most powerless. Could be money, career, your no-account boyfriend, health, etc. When was the first time you felt this way? What was the experience (be as specific as possible) that became the seed for a wound that is still bugging you, maybe almost destroyed you, to this day? Whatever/whoever it was that made you think you were unexceptional, and dismissed was flat out wrong. Own the feeling, no matter how uncomfortable and painful it is. Sit in it, look at what they did, look at what they took from you. October is about re-claiming a powerful piece of self that was buried under lies. You may not even know her yet, but she’s there and she’s waiting for you and Goddess knows we need her! You’ll be thinking a lot about power this month. There are two kinds: structural power and personal power. Structural power is hierarchal, a few control and determine the fates of the many. Personal power is the ability to impact your life and your world in a way that benefits your soul. I hold true that right use of power is love made visible. Any act of self-help is an act of self-love and given the fact self-help books are a billion-dollar business, clearly our means of socializing human beings is incorrect. Fortunately the old women know this and are in the process of creating a template for life and living, rooted in the humane. We are living through Kali Yuga; the center no longer holds. Imagine the Earth on the ground. She’s at an angle, a ragged split cross her belly, her sides peeled back. Dark on either side, the most brilliant light is pouring out from the center; like lava it hits the ground and creates new land, invisible to the naked eye. In October you will make visible what has been invisible for most of your life. Prompts for Life in October: Step out of the argument, let them think they won. Wholeheartedly claim your sense of humor and the absurd. Move slowly, a day at a time, a moment at a time, a breath at a time. This is not a month to hurry up. And when you bump into someone who's intent on making you do what you want them to do, give 'em your best smile and say, "I need to emotionally process this because I speak with you..." Affirmations: I deeply love and approve of myself I trust my judgement I am my sanctuary Everything is always working out for me Live loud, love fierce, and suffer no fools. Kat x0x0x For readings, past life regressions, house clearings, and healings.
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