You know the one where self-knowledge is compared to an onion? Each little bit of awareness peels yet another layer away till you get to the core. Sometimes I think I must be the world’s largest onion because there always seems to be another layer and I keep hitting core and then next thing I know I’m in a new onion. My therapist Wise Joe used to tell me the work of knowing self was eternal and it just infuriated me. “I want this done,” I’d yell, “I don’t want to do this anymore!” And Joe would nod and give me a look that said, “You may as well try and fight gravity.”
At 66 though I can’t imagine living any other way. I love my life, I love me beyond all reason, and no, it’s definitely not all kumbya, and yes I have downs like you wouldn’t believe, but I am part of something mystical, magical, and so much bigger than me it takes my breath away, when I feel it in my quiet moments. I know what it is to reach for the sacred; it’s a whole other thing when I feel the sacred reach for me. Both are equally important.
2018 has been rough for most of my beloved clients and for me. Stop, start, back, forth, fear, money insecurity, political terror, addiction issues, health issues, why, why, why, and layers have come off and rose colored glasses have been forced off, taking everyone closer to their core. More and more women are walking the path of the seeker and refusing to accept a spirituality that is little more than a kinder, gentler Judeo-Christian tradition. The point is you're not a slave to God/Goddess and you're not supposed to be. The God/Goddess of the Witches, wants us fully actualized, standing shoulder to shoulder; co-creating and using our sacred will, which is a piece of the assertive power that lives in all of us. That power becomes a tool of the divine when will serves the soul - Goddess - and Her ways.
The Gemini full moon is about groking your new found truths of 2018. Raw as they may be, they are the soil of the boundary setting that is part and parcel of the you, the authentic woman coming into focus. Keep in mind, new skin is tender. Some one may say something, or you may witness something, that punches all your buttons. Walk the fuck away. Go beat pillows, go cry, go clean something out. And if what punched your buttons is a who and wants to “talk about it,” say, “let me get back to you.” You have more important things to do right now.
This Gemini full moon falls at zero degrees Gemini. It is the point before the beginning, before time, and the home of the Goddess Anu. In this place, you rest in the deep blue waters of pure potential. Take a moment this full moon to feel your creative potential and raw truth. Feel the essence of wondrous possibilities without giving them shape. Feel the sacred reach for you.
The Samhain season is coming to an end. We are now in the valley of a building wave - the rebirth of the Sun at Winter Solstice. Possibility will be born into shape and form to be raised by you, the loving creatrix and parent, the mother Goddess of your own life and destiny.
Live loud, love fierce, and suffer no fools. Kat x0x0x0
FULL MOON MAGICK: Write down everything you're grateful for. Bath, shower in gratitude. Then write down the essence (not the shape) of what you want. Sit with what it feels like. End with, "Thy will through mine, Lady. So mote it be." Now put on some music and dance. x0x0x0 K